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Sexuality, dark fears and great truths

Fear is just noise masquerading as truth

My mouse hovered tentatively over the send button. My heart thumped ferociously in my throat, my hands visibly shook and tears streamed down my face. I took a deep breath and pressed send.

With one tiny click, 30 years of lies began to unravel. There was no going back now.

For almost three decades I had been dishonest with my family and friends and, most importantly, with myself.

Up until just a few months ago, I lived a life where I enjoyed the company of men. Yet deep down my soul longed for something else.

If you prefer a label, you may want to call me gay or bi-sexual (or confused!). Perhaps I am all of these things, or none of them. Personally, I stumble over labels (but this is a post for another day).

This is my story, one of facing my darkest fear and owning my great truth. Continue Reading →